You all deserve love!

I'm not me. Can't seem to understand where I belong? Where is My home now? Not here than where? All these questions sponsered by no answers. Why me? She made her choise with a life without me. And so did I. Where same same but different. On one hand I' m so like her..but on the utger hand I'm so unlike her. I can't barely breath while thinking of this. I can't barely look. But why do I have to look when noone is there? Why do I have to breath when I'm half dead? I'm in hell on the inside but in heaven on the outside. Why is that? I can't seem to trust. I need to trust. A dead me followed by some dead unanswered questions.. Love to all My friends!