I'm neither sad, nor angry..I just don't know whether I'm alive or not. This wasn't my dream. Not yet. There's like a big hole in my heart. The shot just went right through it and stabbed me, stabbed me really hard & gave me a mark. So that's why I'm so far away. Too far away to get reached. I can't barely think. I don't seem to understand. I'm not me. I am unreachable. But very soon I will find myself and return to the me. I'm not giving up on love.